Dark Chocolates

When Pink Floyd said: So, so you think you can tell Heaven from hell? Blue skies from pain? Can you tell a green field From a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? I think he was questioning me.  It's been ten years to school, yet the impulsiveness in me has remained intact. It's been ten years since this blog, but am still pondering on the life I want to live. The overthinking or the misguided decisions have still been a part, for so long.  Progress? I might have gained a few friends and fun experiences, but I have a share of bitter memories and learnings that I never use. That I never inculcate.  When I started here, I wanted to make mistakes to live a full life, without realizing that those mistakes will strike me like a lightning over and over again. Now, I just want to take a pause.  At this point, it feels like that twist of the novel or a movie, where just before the climax, the hero has figured out that all which had changed was of no use, and

There are a thousand ways we imagine things could conspire to be. Yet when the outcome turns to be the one we didn't want, we begin to break down.  We begin to hate the chances taken. We begin to hate the efforts that we put in. We regret.  Sometimes, it is difficult to say that the fate of our lives is in our hands. That we are the master of our world. Maybe we are not, because we try to do our bests yet we can't achieve. What is the purpose then? We ask ourselves, our friends, maybe the higher power. If things aren't meant to roll out the way we expect, what is the point of working on them?  However, there is a way we manage to survive. It's in the lies that we tell others, maybe ourselves too. The truth about lies is, if we say them enough, we start to believe them  ---  "Does it still hurt?" "No"      And unless someone looks into our eyes, we begin to realize all the lies that we have been telling ourselves and once again shred into pieces. For

 As this year I had vowed to have a rise in positive thoughts in my mental system, I have seen the stones turn around. This doesn't mean that I do not have my lows anymore, but for sure I feel that am attracting positive energy and a lot of laughs. Thus, as the month is ending I decided to jot down a pretty list of things I am grateful for. I am grateful for the opportunities I had,  Grateful for the people who pushed me down, Thankful for the ones who made me smile,  For they made me see all who I could be, And the all who I wasn't till then. I am grateful for I am better, because of my experiences, Thankful that I know the worth of the small things, Am glad I know how precious friends are, And that I cherish every single phone call. I am glad that God gave me a chance, To see how beautiful life is, When you are around people who are full of lush, And who are full of laughter. You know what I am happier about? That I want to keep my friends so close, for I lost them once and c