Dark Chocolates

How long can one suppress their emotions? A day? A week? A month? It is hard  opening up and letting your vulnerable side out to others. It is insane to keep quiet for the sake of mental peace of someone else so much that your own head stops working. And then one day, the tears come rolling out. Everything in your life seems a blur. A mistake that you can’t solve. Suppressing your feelings might make you feel okay for some time, but they are going to get out eventually. They only grow the more you keep it in. Like a volcano. It is going to burst and burn everything around you. You have problems? Well, face it. Find a solution, no matter what. Talk to the ones that you have to talk to. Don’t just sleep over it every time. Have a spine. Don’t you respect yourself? How long would you hurt yourself by not facing things around you? One day, you will stop enjoying reading those books that you escape in. You will stop watching TV shows that distract you. That is called depression,

After writing five drafts in the last few months, I have decided that I will post whatever I write in this one. Because, you might be the only person who is reading this blog anyway. I have been quite tense about my social skills that have hit a new low. Living in a foreign country and not finding anyone to talk to was one thing, but not wanting to talk to anyone I know and hating everyone active on facebook is a pretty weird level. I won't say I am worried about it, but I do think about it a lot. Unless, I am watching TV shows and writing articles which clearly are not bringing me any closer to me having good "creative" ideas for a book.  I haven't read a book in so long because I was busy making friends with Lannisters and Starks. (GoT, in case you don't know.) But when I am busy doing laundry, wiping the floor ten times a day because I have developed obsessive cleaning disorder out of living alone for the most part of the day, and when I try to sleep