Dark Chocolates

We are fragile. Sensitive hearts that sometimes hurt too much. Yet, no way that we are going to the therapist, eh? Who wants to pay 2000 rupees to drain out their dull-head on a complete stranger?However, there are other ways to be mentally strong though. By mentally strong I mean -- accepting the situations, and yourself, without being critical and calling yourself a "dull head." Get it? Yoga. Meditation. Visiting temple. Visiting Gurudwara. Listening Gurbani or any other soft music. Chanting Om. Ever tried? Being an atheist, you’d never like to visit a religious place. But, if you had an upbringing in a spiritual family, you will always have an inkling to have faith in the higher power. At the time of lowest of lows, you'll want to bend your knees and simply pray. It is like meditation-- in the realms of practical world. The motive is to find something that gives you peace. Find something that makes your inner soul alive, so you don’t feel dead on the inside a...

Tick, tick, tick the clock is ticking, While you sip that coffee, the time is slipping. Make a change, your mind is thinking. Silence in your brains, now exploding. Eyes hurt, and the body shivers, A tear in your eyes, and you quiver what to do, you can't decide, Fool yourself, with the indecisiveness, Stop yourself because of the fear, They say, the future so bright How would it be, if you don't decide? The breath so heavy, it burns your skin, The scream so loud, it broke your soul, Give it up, give it up up up, Or just ignore slurp, slurp, slurp Make a change or let time slip, because Tick tick tick, the clock is ticking.

Another year rolled out, and you are still fidgeting with your dreams, aren't you? Life changes year after year. Some disappointments you faced, some challenges you dealt with and you even achieved small goals. But, you aren't proud of yourself, all because "IT'S NOT THE LIFE YOU WANTED", eh? Life is what is happening to you, right now. Even if you like it or not. If you have to change something, step up. If you want to be happy, embrace the niceness that is already around you. How long would you keep fighting with yourself, for the chances you didn't take, for the mistakes you made? STOP. Take a deep breath. Be proud of what you have. Proud of what you did. Give a last look at the year you lived. Embrace the realizations you had. If there is a decision to make, listen to your gut feeling. You ALWAYS know what is best for you. It's only self-doubt and fear that keeps you away from doing things that you want. The best advice somebody gav...

When I was young, Oh, when I was young... Everything was so much fun. Had no dreams, had no pun, but oh, it was so much fun. The hugs from mama, learning skates, learning to ride a bicycle and the dance with papa. The fights with di and the games too.. Telling on her to mom and dad, and the midnight stories too.. No cellphone, no wifi, Even the cable was out, Had a playground, had a school, and there was plenty happiness, no doubt There were friends, who brought plenty smiles Them, I still dream of, After the closing of blinds... And now, Oh its still good,, With the new world around.. but the old days, I will always miss their sound.

How long can one suppress their emotions? A day? A week? A month? It is hard  opening up and letting your vulnerable side out to others. It is insane to keep quiet for the sake of mental peace of someone else so much that your own head stops working. And then one day, the tears come rolling out. Everything in your life seems a blur. A mistake that you can’t solve. Suppressing your feelings might make you feel okay for some time, but they are going to get out eventually. They only grow the more you keep it in. Like a volcano. It is going to burst and burn everything around you. You have problems? Well, face it. Find a solution, no matter what. Talk to the ones that you have to talk to. Don’t just sleep over it every time. Have a spine. Don’t you respect yourself? How long would you hurt yourself by not facing things around you? One day, you will stop enjoying reading those books that you escape in. You will stop watching TV shows that distract you. That is called depress...

After writing five drafts in the last few months, I have decided that I will post whatever I write in this one. Because, you might be the only person who is reading this blog anyway. I have been quite tense about my social skills that have hit a new low. Living in a foreign country and not finding anyone to talk to was one thing, but not wanting to talk to anyone I know and hating everyone active on facebook is a pretty weird level. I won't say I am worried about it, but I do think about it a lot. Unless, I am watching TV shows and writing articles which clearly are not bringing me any closer to me having good "creative" ideas for a book.  I haven't read a book in so long because I was busy making friends with Lannisters and Starks. (GoT, in case you don't know.) But when I am busy doing laundry, wiping the floor ten times a day because I have developed obsessive cleaning disorder out of living alone for the most part of the day, and when I try to sleep...

There are people who claim to love travelling alone. They claim that it helps them know themselves "better" and have some me-time. But, I live in a city where I face language barrier and have to spend a lot of time alone. Thus, when it comes to travelling, I doubt if I would ever want to go to another place far away and wish to do the same. Roam around alone with no one to giggle with. It is hard to accept that you don't enjoy me-time, as other people have this opinion that "intelligent" people would always love to do the same. There are billion intelligent, shit-crazy thoughts that pass through their mind when they are travelling and they can manage everything all by themselves. Why would you want to spend time alone, when you rarely get to enjoy a family time? Where is the world taking you? When you are out there on the beach all by yourself, won't you miss your funny friend who makes you giggle all the time? Won't you want to be with a partner ...