Dark Chocolates

Its Christmas. How can I not write a post! 2 years to blogging..woh!! *cheers* Time passes quick and admit it no matter how hard you try to remain silly and in your own world, one day, you just have to grow up. The daily-basis craziness has to go down to weekly or maybe just when you are drunk. I slept all day. Yeah, that's how my Christmas was like. But it was all I wanted to do because i know the day is near when I would have to stop being a loner. Time to move my ass off the couch, say good-bye to time-to-time vacations and get a job! Time to finally use my brains and do what the routine asks me to do instead of just "I do what my heart says". I realize when you don't get a life, life gets you! Graduation is over...about to..whatever. I can't wear the same old sweat-shirt and blue jeans daily and look ugly whenever I want ( The reason I hate people who work from home and earning enough to be on their own feet ) Uh, I will definitely miss college. The lazin

The major turn of events in my life made me busy as my mind went to wander and never came back. I am amazed, happy and suffering from mini delusional disorder at the same time. I can't hold those very strange questions inside of me any longer. I'll sound way too crazy, which am by-the-way scared to portray as I do not want to go single again. (Yes, yes, am not single anymore. Even Ted Mosby found his wife, why wouldn't I..duh!?) Do you all get a feeling that something is about to happen? Some signs tell you or some of your insights, don't they? It happened to me after all!! Is it really about destiny? Should we go with the flow or should we restrict our self?  Does God really exist? What if it doesn't? Do we just use 'God' as a medium to count on when we give up? Who's there to see our Karma? What goes around,comes around,huh? What if there was a seventh sense?? Would we be able to observe anything else ?? Or would it just help us in believing what ou

You forget. You forget why you loved music and all those romantic songs. You forget what it feels like to sleep at night with the surety that the next day will go just fine.You forget to check your phone, the first thing in the morning. You forget how awesome it is to wake up and know that you are no doubt, happy.  You forget how great it feels to look into the mirror and notice the glow.  You forget you can live without those "mood swings" and be always at peace. You forget how is it possible to think about someone 24*7. You forget how complete it feels to think about them, knowing that they think about you too. You forget that its okay to have the flaws which everyone else points out. You forget how awesome it is to be alone but still know that there is someone out there for you even if not in front of these eyes. You forget why your friend acts so weird, silly and according to you a "cheap-romantic" around someone they claim to be in love with. You do not rememb

This independence day , I looked into MYSELF.!  Maybe you need to too. There are a lot of ways we get stuck in our own little world. Maybe you are too. Maybe you need to set your wings and get ready for a flight! (NOTE : Do not get hit by some building or a tree though) Ask yourself one thing. What you really want to do but you haven't been able to? Its okay if you have not figured out everything till now. But you must realize what your passion is.The one thing which can keep you happy on your own..For a lazy person like me , it can be writing or reading. Or maybe you just want to watch "games of thrones" all day long.(Seriously, thats too lazy though) Just figure it out. And do it.. Take out time. If you want a magazine out, talk to any possible person you can! If you enjoy painting , paint.Its not necessary that you should want to become MF Hussain or unless you do not want to EVER touch that brush!  Because When you get to notice the mini-orgasms of your friends,

I got a friend request from my old best friend from school that too only while I was thinking about her! The girl I terribly fought with and hated till yesterday. Hated her and the whole group. But then, accepting her request felt like a huge rock inside my heart had melted. The rock that I pretended does not exist. One thing is assured. A friendship can be saved after having a fight and it can ruin if you try to ignore the situation and move ahead. There is this grudge which sets in. Maybe you don't identify it at first but years down the lane you will realize those memories hurt you more. You took an easy way out and that's what you did wrong. They say, if the road seems too easy , you are probably in a wrong direction. We can pretend to not care but in the longer run, we will. I have two friends I fight with a lot and that is the reason why they are still close. If I had chosen my other tactics over them, they would have not been a part of my life right now. Earlier,

There are few things which when happen have an immense effect on you. They often change the way you think, change your perspectives, change your lifestyle. Well.. it can be a personal experience, a certain person, a book ....or maybe an awesome sitcom! Probably you would have heard of the serial "friends" and if not.. You are missing out on something big!! Sorry to say but your soul wont rest in peace if you die today. For me, its just not an entertainment show. It is a lot more. The fact that am blogging about it is the prominent symbol that how much it means to me. I know am just 20 but in all these years I haven't been crazy about anything other than that. Maybe a little for my first love(who actually asked me to see it..and for which i would be very thankful to him) and the next crush and the guy who was really handsome and used to sit beside me in the exam hall..and yah my crush's crush who was so adorable that I thought I would love to turn into a lesbian fo

You will fall out of love and you will regret it. It's awful. Breaking someone else's heart is even more terrible than getting your own heart, broken. You will love someone who won't ever love you back. Happens at least once with everyone. It's okay, you'll move on. Probably, after totally embarrassing yourself and realizing that they don't deserve your love at all. You will let people walk all over you because you cannot afford to lose them. Yes, you are stupid. You are a teenager, after all. We need to forgive others. It's never good for us to hold grudges. But it's not okay when they make a mistake the third time. It never will be okay. Leave them. They can go f**k their ass wherever and whenever they want. You need to forgive yourself. Everyone makes mistakes. Believe it or not, those mistakes make our life better in some way. When your first friend is cheating on your second friend, you are not supposed to tell that friend and ruin your fr

They say, I was a month old when he passed away. But somehow, he still exists in my life, in the stories of my mother..the stories which are always relating to the communication we have.. As a child, i used to be scared of him. He came out as a very strict and aggressive person to me.. I used to look at his portrait and have a sensation of a man with audacity in his veins.. They say, when i was born he told them that I ll be a girl who will never let my parents down..  And am happy i have kept his words till now.. After listening to the various anecdotes of my mother's unmarried life and noticing him in the photographs of my parents' wedding album, his representation has changed.. I have started liking him. He appears as a very intelligent, dignified and honorable man in the society.. His accidental death depicted what a selfless man he was..a man who sacrificed his life for the lives of many.. I have a curiosity..often on the long walks in the garden his thought crops up and